mechanical love

I sit and smile as you approach me, you look at me and then you look down, i see your body visibly adjust, its like your going into battle.

You look back at me and then you smile, you put your hand in mine and say come walk with me.  We move together, the motion of two blending into one.  We talk of life, we laugh, we talk of love, we share, my heart soars at the connection, at us. 

In that hour i conveniently forget the adjustment you made, but there are moments it seeps out, moments when you stare into space and your face has a look that says I would rather not be here, and then you shake yourself out of it, and turn to smile at me, almost to re-assure me.  I ask if everything is okay, you say yes, then its time for you to go, i love you , you say, but you don't look at me as you say these words. 

In that moment i know what this is, mechanical love, you said it because you know thats what i want to hear.  At that moment i also know i have to let you go..

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