wow

been reading the most awesome blog and found this:

Remember this always: God determines who walks into your life. It is up
to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you
refuse to let GO!!

my thoughts on reading this -

“Love is therefore a “decision”. Not just a feeling.”

The above quote is one of the best things that comes as close to describing relationships as it gets

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The shadow of my dreams is the pain of my life. It hovers over me, tantalising yet so far away, it torments me in the day and caresses me in the night. The shadow of my dreams is my love, he whispers his thoughts to me, encourages me when I'm down, laughs at my jokes and keeps the fire alive. Oh shadow of my dreams, so near yet so far, you are what i want, you are who i want. With you I am never alone, with you, i exist, with you the delusion that i am continues.

The truth is shadow, i should let you go, for none can be my love but you, but you are just a shadow my love, you exist as i exist. Touch me shadow and show me you are real, sing to me shadow that i may hear the song of our love, kiss me shadow that i may feel the heat of our love. I love you shadow, but i love myself, for you are me and without me you don't exist.

The shadow used to be real, i remember him, i hold on to him, he left, me the man, he said i was his, then he left me for another. The man left and the shadow remained. Shadow is mine. I paint the shadow the colour of my love, I love you shadow, i wrestle with you shadow, you are my strength but you are also my weakness.

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face

Something has been on my mind lately and that is the idea of beauty. What is this concept? So many studies have been done on this, on what is considered attractive and what isn't. I met someone who was so confident she just oozed sexuality and as a consequence beauty. I wonder what the function of looks is, i guess to help you get a mate, but if that was true, then why are there un-attractive people. Should God have just made all people attractive or if not, then made it in such a way that un-attractive people have so many other attributes that you don't notice they aren't attractive. Now that would be a fair world

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