What do you do when what you want, what you desire, slips through your fingers. How do you stop it from going, should you even stop it?

Many times, I hear the phrase if you truly love something let it go, if it comes back to you, it was meant to be. How much of this is actual rubbish. Its unbelievable how many people have advise on how you should live your life. Even more unbelievable is how similar everyone advise is. Possibly because we have all been to the same schools, read the same books, been exposed to the same ideas, that our thoughts are basically the same, but how do it tell them they are wrong!!

No i am not single because i want to be, no I do not like being by myself, yes I crave intimacy. No I will not date that guy just because he thinks I'm hot. Its not enough damn it. Do I have no say in what my feelings are to this other person? Is it not a contradiction that a guy loves and pursues, but a girl receives and accepts? Should there not be a parameter through which I decide, Is that really asking too much? Goodness me, i didn't think it was that complicated. My good friend told me that for a relationship to happen, there must be a double coincidence of wants... I loved that, Its not just about one side wanting the other side, you must both want each other......

Where is the rule that says single people should accept every invitation that comes their way, is single synonymous with desperate?? Its absolutely ridiculous and a complete travesty to the idea of companionship.

I have vowed that I shall not be alone in a relationship, I think there is nothing sadder than that, that i love him and he likes me, no way, that is not why relationships were created. For me, its all about companionship, do we feed off each other, around him do i grow, around me does he grow, do we add value to each others lives....

NKT sometimes these questions just piss me of cause i feel that somewhere up there God is laughing his arse off saying he gave us the perfect plan and we had to go and complicate stuff by getting equality. The fact that I am educated means i know better and i think that is my moby dick, the ever consuming desire that shall never be quenched. Oh I shall never say never but continue to hope and pray (despite the comedian up there) that I am not mad, that I have the right idea about my life, that I know what I'm doing.

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