The confusion of me

I see her looking back at me, she winks, i wink, she laughs, I laugh, but lately all she does is cry, because i cry. I want to forgive, but what you did, you slayed my soul. I told you my secret, my hair was my strength, you came at night and cut it, you took my strength and Laughed at me, you see me crawl and feel delight? No, you cannot be so cruel, for if you are then i was so wrong. Could I have been so wrong? Could my judgement be so skewed?? So I did the ultimate wrong in telling you my weakness, I trusted you, and I now have got my reward.

I don't look so bad in short hair. I tell myself that I will survive, that I have been here before and it grew back, but its the time between that's so rough. I just don't understand, why did you do it? Is it me? I guess it must be cause this keeps happening to me. I follow the script, but you don't seem to be reading from the same page leave alone the same book. Why did I not check the title? Its a stupid thing hindsight, I hate it cause it just seems to reveal my stupidity, my ignorance in my so called experienced life.

I guess what i felt was denial, and now its absolute sadness, cant wait for the anger then I'm over it.

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